Assume Nothing. Question Everything.
I don’t understand. Even though she has raised me all my life, I still feel a gap between us. She thinks that she knows everything about me. Every word I will say, every corner I will turn, every reaction I will have. She thinks that she knows what is best for me and how my friends will react. I say that I want to buy a present for my friend, she says, “Oh, no need. I have something she will love.” It turns out to be something that is way off base. She doesn’t even know what I want myself for holidays unless I tell her, and then she thinks that she is perfect. I don’t understand. Her wants are not my wants, and her desires are not my own. Her priorities do not stand out for me, and vice versa. I do not understand what to do, and in the end, I feel guilty for trying to be myself because in the process it partly shuts her out. It disconnects her. She does not want to be disconnected. She wants to be included as does everyone in her position, and all I can think of is that I am tired of everything. I don’t understand why she assumes all of these things about me. I have changed from when I was little, and now is a new day.